Seriously fuck YOU*
If you though i have a good & easy life.
If you though that good thing just fall on me
&
only you have to work hard for what you want?
Than seriously fuck *YOU!
You dunno how hard ii work to be where i am right now?
You dunno how paine it is to grow up to be where i am right now?
You dunno how difficult it was to change to be where i am right now?
Don't you pretend you know my story
just by seeing all the good thing from my facebook!
No one like to share bad thing & post sad stuff?
for what?
Gain pity? Gain encouragement words?
It basically useless to me (admit it did help sometime) but still....
nothing change unless =)
You take a step to change your current situation,
You made a decision to change your current life.
If not, you post & complain did nothing to help at all. AT ALL.
You can post all you want & nag all you want but anything change, NO lor!
From age of 2, my mum leave me with my granny who took care of me.
At one point of time, my granny quit her job to take care of me full time
while my mum is in jail.
when money run out, she even beg my teacher at k1 to let me cont my studies.
You dunno how heartpain it is to remember this memory i kept it with me for years.
From age of 14, i started working for my own living.
Paying for my expenses & working for school fees.
it's tough trying to balance two life.
i miss out loads of CCA i like & gathering of friends but...
this is life!
i know i have to work to survive & i do it.
I made mistake & i admit it.
One grave mistake that i made, i almost cannot u-turning back
&
this break the heart of everyone.
ii been caught twice resulted in police case & yet both time,lady luck shine on me.
I only been send for counselling =x
which i thank god for that & i change.
But when i try to change, no one trust me at all.
when thing is lost at home, the first they do is beat me up.
when i didnt DIDNT take at all.
the only person that trust me is my BFF shiye.
She is really there for me, for this, i super thankful i choose HIHS as my school.
if not maybe i wont even be here at all.
And yes, i almost quit my poly cos working is super tough!
I missed alot of lesson bcos im just too tired to even wake up
to travel all the way to woodland.
but also thankful to SHIYE for *angrily asking* me to wake up & go work.
if without her, i think i wont even grad with a poly cert=)
and from young, (not that im blaming my dearest ah e)
if without her strict guidence,
im not even here too=)
she always always beat me up,
for no result sometime (maybe at that point, it is no reason to me)
and i ask heaven;
why my mum give birth to me than throw me here to be beat by my aunt?
why why why?
of cos there's no reply.
everyone though i dunno how to do housework,
the reason why i don wan do is bcos from young,
i been doing it.
if there's even single dust on the wall,
i will be slaped =.=||
now you can see why i totally hate it.
but i will it to vent my anger sometime now.
but still im thankful for my aunt,
if she didnt keep me in place,
i will be much much worse.
There still much more much more incident to state,
but seriously, don assume my life is good just by seeing the appearence of it.
I WORK HARD TO BE WHERE I AM NOW
&
yes, i do complain alot. in fact =x
But,
All in all =)
Im where i am due to friends support, working hard for $$, & myself.
Don assume you know who i am
till you talk to me _||_
If you though i have a good & easy life.
If you though that good thing just fall on me
&
only you have to work hard for what you want?
Than seriously fuck *YOU!
You dunno how hard ii work to be where i am right now?
You dunno how paine it is to grow up to be where i am right now?
You dunno how difficult it was to change to be where i am right now?
Don't you pretend you know my story
just by seeing all the good thing from my facebook!
No one like to share bad thing & post sad stuff?
for what?
Gain pity? Gain encouragement words?
It basically useless to me (admit it did help sometime) but still....
nothing change unless =)
You take a step to change your current situation,
You made a decision to change your current life.
If not, you post & complain did nothing to help at all. AT ALL.
You can post all you want & nag all you want but anything change, NO lor!
From age of 2, my mum leave me with my granny who took care of me.
At one point of time, my granny quit her job to take care of me full time
while my mum is in jail.
when money run out, she even beg my teacher at k1 to let me cont my studies.
You dunno how heartpain it is to remember this memory i kept it with me for years.
From age of 14, i started working for my own living.
Paying for my expenses & working for school fees.
it's tough trying to balance two life.
i miss out loads of CCA i like & gathering of friends but...
this is life!
i know i have to work to survive & i do it.
I made mistake & i admit it.
One grave mistake that i made, i almost cannot u-turning back
&
this break the heart of everyone.
ii been caught twice resulted in police case & yet both time,lady luck shine on me.
I only been send for counselling =x
which i thank god for that & i change.
But when i try to change, no one trust me at all.
when thing is lost at home, the first they do is beat me up.
when i didnt DIDNT take at all.
the only person that trust me is my BFF shiye.
She is really there for me, for this, i super thankful i choose HIHS as my school.
if not maybe i wont even be here at all.
And yes, i almost quit my poly cos working is super tough!
I missed alot of lesson bcos im just too tired to even wake up
to travel all the way to woodland.
but also thankful to SHIYE for *angrily asking* me to wake up & go work.
if without her, i think i wont even grad with a poly cert=)
and from young, (not that im blaming my dearest ah e)
if without her strict guidence,
im not even here too=)
she always always beat me up,
for no result sometime (maybe at that point, it is no reason to me)
and i ask heaven;
why my mum give birth to me than throw me here to be beat by my aunt?
why why why?
of cos there's no reply.
everyone though i dunno how to do housework,
the reason why i don wan do is bcos from young,
i been doing it.
if there's even single dust on the wall,
i will be slaped =.=||
now you can see why i totally hate it.
but i will it to vent my anger sometime now.
but still im thankful for my aunt,
if she didnt keep me in place,
i will be much much worse.
There still much more much more incident to state,
but seriously, don assume my life is good just by seeing the appearence of it.
I WORK HARD TO BE WHERE I AM NOW
&
yes, i do complain alot. in fact =x
But,
All in all =)
Im where i am due to friends support, working hard for $$, & myself.
Don assume you know who i am
till you talk to me _||_
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