You don't get another chance, life is no Nintendo game~ 

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
Well that's alright because I like the way it hurts.

if i am not even born,
would things would turn out better?
if i am not your daughter,
would u be happier?

all along i thought that maybe,
you didnt understand my msg in english,
so i send in chinese.
&
yet,
u ask me that one question,
that send my heart shattering ~ who are you?
=.=
Till now, i than realise~
you are the one choosing not to reply at all.

why?
i know i should not disturb u as u have another family, that doesnt have anything to do with me.
but only on special occassion,
that i send you messages~ trying to do my part as daughter.
and yet, i forget u have another daughter.

thanks for making me feel unwanted.
when u fail to turn up on my 21st, thou u promise to.
when u fail to even reply, thou u understand my msg.
when u didnt even know whose your daughter _l_

i wonder,
do u know how hard it is for me to send u a message,
asking u out for dinner etc.
do u even know or even care?
i hope u don regret when i don even bother to try anymore.

when the hope turn to dust,
all i can do is stand back & watch it fly.
and when the time to come,
shall a heart turn to ice~

happi birthday to my deardear=)
...
..
.

没有想到,事情会转变的这么快.
一夜之间,大家的心情没有回转的余地.
有伤感, 有失落, 有悲愤...
对我, 却是舍不得.

虽然,日子过得忙忙碌碌.
但是, 还过得相当开心,
虽然,每天都累倒想死,
但是,还过得非常有意义.

明白, 生 离 死 别
是人生必过的一个阶段.
但还是讨厌这些让我流泪的原因.

=(

=)
dearest ah e brough me a new vaio lappy as advance bdaz pressie ~.~
i stand there & choose between the colors for like an hour.
end~up, from white to pink to blue & all over again ~ i choose BLUEE.
Recently, i fallen in love with electric~bluee but not much IT gadgets
had that unique color. *=((
even the new lappy i have is just BLUEE, and not electric~blue wor.
but nvm bahh... afterall, it is still Bluee mah.
*
sometime i wonder;" are all human so selfish? only think about himself or herself & only ownself matter?" but than again, if this is really the case, there wont be peoples doing charity work, right?
As well let the poor stave to death, let the aged worked to death, doesnt it.
i am just feeling sorry for those who think for himself or herself,
like those who ignore a old lady on train, pretend to sleep?
do you feel good? what if that old lady fall? what if that old lady is your grandma?
how would u feel . _I_
life is so unfair, deosnt it?
sometime, i should just think for myself.
sometime, i should not be so soft~hearted.
_I_
but it is just not me.
**
recently, i saw how relationship is causing *pain* to those ard me.
but without those beautify pain, we will nvr glory in what love is all abt.
just remember, when your heart still contain that someone else.
do not ever let anyone into your live when you know, you might be u-turing back.
***
I'm scare of moving away from the only home i grow up in.
i try not to think abt it, but day by day, time flies.
i worry that once i move~out, with my busy working timetable~,
how i will have the time to accompany my grandmother
&
look after my cousins=(
fuck it.
~~

-Paths
when the road ahead seem tough,
when the sunshine turn darkness,
when the love turn hatred,
when everything was just twisted.

walking alone the darkest path,
facing the lone figure of shadow,
knowing that you turned to memories
yet nothing can be salvage.

deep in the heart,
understand & knowing,
yet it doesnt help the mending of the broken heart.
learning & facing,
yet the pain continues on.

deep in the mind,
understand & knowing
memories from yesterday remain,
present was the reality of what's left .
and the future is a path to walk without u.

a paths full of bruise & pain,
a path that one walk alone,
yet this is the path i chosen.

~10June.

跟着我开窍 不是我的不要
回忆来打扰 那哭一下就好
没有谁依靠 不会死掉
没有大不了

突然间开窍 心空空的真好
谁也管不着 唱就唱闹就闹
没有谁拥抱 才有空间
用力的奔跑

扬 起 你的嘴角
今後 不再爲了别人微笑
你就是你的主角

开窍-A-Lin